back to present day...
i've been working at Trader Joe's for 16 months now, been training for a promotion for 7 months. this week, someone else got promoted. I was jumped. for what reason, i can't be clear. it could have been favoritism, it could have been age, but the bottom line is, i'm salty about these events.
i worked last night with ABSOLUTELY no inspirato, no motivation, no 'sense of urgency'. at the end of the night, after receiving an apology from the manager on hand for being jumped, i was told..."You know what you need to do, and frankly, I saw it tonight, I saw that second gear..."
contradiction surrounds my employment. lord knows i can deal with that.
at the heart of this situation is my unwillingness (but ability) to be a retail all-star. i have an unnecessarily large amount of respect for retail workers. this trait does not make me a natural selection for retail management. historically, to be management, you must be first focused on the customers, second focused on productivity and profit, and third (lastly) focused on pleasing the staff. my mind flips that list. i'm a valuable member of the staff, and respected by all of my co-workers, and blah blah blah.